I WANT TO DESTROY MY BODY

Walls

I've built up these walls so high that I can't seem to break it down.
How stupid was it of me to not build a door?
Stay in confinement.
starve...
starve.
my body of it's nutrients.
I want to be sickly
I want to be frail
I don't want anyone trying to help me.
Let me get thin.
Let me kill myself slowly.
These are what the walls are for
I don't want you here so please leave me alone.
This is why there is no door.
But sometimes it gets lonely here
so lonely I crave company.
My company all leave me though so I don't want them around for long
I would rather to the disposing instead of the other way around.