shoot me because this is wrong

i don't understand why you are still running loose in my head
once more i can see your eyes and feel your touch
i thought i kicked you out
i guess you just hid somewhere in the dark corner
you're a good hider huh just like how you're a good actor
but then again i do believe that you would have been a good friend
and i wished that you would become someone close to me
a friend i cherish
i suppose you didn't agree even though you said that you would like to too
actor
i believed those words
hey don't put all the blame on me
the phone works both ways
i still try to talk to you
yet you don't bother
maybe somewhere inside of me feels like i didn't clean up well
i think a good beat down
you to the ground i will feel satisfied
maybe then i'll feel like it's totally over
i feel like there still something that i have to do
and i let you off way to easily.
i didn't even get to tell you everything i wanted to tell you
questions were left unanswered and are still not answered
i didn't get you scream at you and yell and bitch
i didn't get to leave you bleeding
i didn't get to leave you in tears like you left me
and i want to get back at you
yet i really don't have any ill thoughts of you as a friend
as your ex
i'm so speechless when you told me that you thought that i cheated on your and you wanted to get back at me but didn't
how and why would you even think that
what lead you to think that
don't make me laugh
as your ex
i should bitch as you and have someone no i should beat you up
no instead i cried and let you hold me and kiss me
saying it'll be alright that this wasn't the end THE END
after you held my hand and we walked over to where kenny and karin were
hand in hand you still had them fooled
to them we were still alright.


i feel like there's still something missing
not in my heart
but some part of me
there's things left undone
as much as i want to beat you down i do miss the happy times we had
yes lately i've been thinking about you more
the times we had
i know that i will not take you back
i have someone i care about love much more than i ever loved you
but i still do miss the good times we had
i wish we were good friends like we both said....
this is wrong
i know for a fact that i love CL. he's become the air that i breath the sun to my earth.
so why do i feel so sad thinking about you
why do i feel such guilt
i don't want you back but i miss you
this is wrong right?



fml