i am no longer
gone away
i'm not strong
there's is no more playing cool or keeping it in anymore
things are spinning out of control
things are flying zooming by
there is no more oh i don't care
because i care more than anything
i shouldn't get so worked up over it
but i'm so sick of it
haha you had your laughs now SHUT THE FUCK UP please...
your ever piercing eyes never leave
your echoing laugh haunts me
fingers pointed target locked
i wish i could erase my existance from this pityful plant where the words happiness, peace, love and hope are only a fragment of every wilting flowers
there are only a few to make me reconsider my wish
these days aren't so swell
in fact they don't come close to happy or content
people keep pushing it
i'm giving in to all their shit stupid weak coward WAKE THE FUCK UP
i know i know whatever
i listen to the words taht fly out of peoples mouth no it's not supposed to bother me because they don't know shit about you and that it's not true but it does bother me
i hate being placed into this outline of what people think i am because of my looks my bad habits my flaws
who the hell are you to judge me? exactly but why do i care? why do those words hit me so hard?
offensive. they hurt more than if i were to be gutted.
i feel so done with everything
i hate living in this fake judgemental world where all that matters is power wealth and outside appearance
you don't know shit about anything
so laugh it up before you get crushed too by the same people that laughed with you
the world is small he will find a way to break you down
and she will find a way to rip you apart
and they will find a way to make you feel so low
that's the fucking world you live in
you say you'll rise above haha just keep trying let's see how far you can go
when betrayal envy hate is so strong.