self destructive i don't care anymore
i fucked up
i'm tired i'm unstable i'm complicated
i suppose that since i fucked up i would stop doing the things that make me do shit i regret
but that is not the case
i wish my willpower was strong enough
but as i've said before i do not believe that love overcomes all
i will not deny my addictions my needyness my everything
i am a bitch a fucked up girl someone you would not want to be tangled up in
i'm insensitive and cunning
i am everything you should stay away from
i believe it is better that way then i will not hurt the ones i love and care about most
i will destroy others as i am destroying myself
i am in a mess now
i think i lost people that i love so much and it's my fault
i am complicated
i am psychotic
i am mentally damaged
i am ill
i am fucked up
i am a bitch
i am the boogie monster
i am misery
i am jealous
i am unhappy
i am terrified
i am looking for an easy way out
i am mentally weak
i am dependent on others
i am physically incapable
i am no longer how i used to be
i am no longer the daughter i once was
i am no longer the friend that can smile
i am lifeless
i am insecure
i am hard to understand
i am bitter
i am sour
i am empty
i am going through routine motions with no heart in it
i am somehow getting by
i am still breathing i wish i wasn't
i am a spoiled ungrateful litle brat
i am a girl that is fading
i am a drug and alcohol addict
i am a hypocrite
i am a monster
i am useless
i am ruining my own chances for happiness
i am stupid
i am immature
i am not ivy anymore
i am just so tired of the things i have to do i think it would just be easier to fall asleep and never wake up
i am self destructive.

that is who i am now