*i realized how much i missed you and how we can still share the same laughter as before
it's just different.
my heart ripped in two when i saw the white gauze
it shattered when you told me what happened
it evaporated when i saw the result.
i slapped you across the face twice. i think you deserved more for doing what you did for thinking what you thought then not thinking at all but i didn't want to hurt you all i wanted to do was to cry and wrap my arms around you.
you see you still have such a big space in my heart the space that you claimed during spring bliss.
i still want to hold you and kiss you. i want to tell you that i love you.
but things are different now. it's gonna take a long time to not want to hold you or kiss you.
i think i'll always want to tell you i love you because i will always love you.
every little memory of you makes me sink into a daze
and i miss those days with every particle of my being.
i miss the happiness i felt. i miss the warmth of your arms around me.
i missed you. i love you. hello good bye hello again my forever superboo my sunshine.

*people say you're a jerk and you are at times but it's not anything i dislike
you are sweet in my eyes.
it's been so long right? i remember the nights i would lie awake in my bed texting you
i remember the days were we hung out every weekend.
we've been through quite a lot havent we?
i got my wish i made a long time ago. i think i only realize it now that my wish has been granted. you are the closest guy friend i have.
you are the person i would go to when i'm faced with a problem.
my love for you has evolved from those days back then when i liked you.
i can say i love you to you and i know it's true. who says i love you can only be said to family or a partner?
i love you my dearest but i know you already know that.
thank you for the sweetest gift i've ever received. hmm do you know the other bear i got from you it was around this time of year too?
i'll cherish them both.

what is it about your genes that make me love the both of you so much
what is it about you that make me care about you so much
two different people two different personalities two different love
same blood.

oh nostalgia hits me like a powerful wave, knocking me down.
do you remember lingers on my tongue
remember those days WE had such good laughs, the sky always seemed to blue back then
oh yeah those days were pure spring bliss, spring bliss that lasted until fall.
fall, that's when everything did seem to fall apart
funny isn't it?
life goes by in phases like chapters in a book
before that chapter there was his chapter and before that there was those days were my hair was done held in perfect place by hair spray and wax.
and before that decora galore was all the rage.
this new chapter are filled with skatepark days being a little older falling in and out of like stressing over the last year of school and the start of your life.
i kind of want to go back to my spring bliss
i loved those days it was so bright and beautiful
everyone laughed back then everyone was HAPPY with their lives
now there's something the matter always just a slight torn probing your side
nostalgia why did you take me back to the days i was the most happiest
why did you make me miss it so much
these days what am i up to? what am i doing with my life?
these days things are so much different
these days i have new perspective on this and that
i want him or is it the other one i really want?
the other one scares me but every moment is an adventure
with him i'm content his smile is so radiant just like the smile that the past smiled.
i feel like smiling when i'm with him
in some ways he reminds me of you, a little older, more mature.
in the future do you think you'll be kind of like him?
i hope so and in the future i hope our bond is strong just as it was during spring .
bonds are created and some are diminishing
i shed a tear or two but i'm ready to move on because i've come to certain realizations that a friend i have once made.
i know why that friend made that decision and i agree with them.
it's clear. of course it makes me sad but at the same time i don't think i could care less i mean you don't so why the hell should i?
good bye.
nostalgia visit me once more in a year or two and we shall evaluate once more where i stand in life
let's add another chapter and then another until my book is complete.