at times like this

every so often insecuries strike me
i know why they are caused
i just don't want to bring it up to him
i don't want to rush things
i don't know at what point things start to get ridiculous
but at times like these
i want to slink away slowly fade out
continue living my life before i started to talk to you
before that night
but things can't change now

i
have
fallen
and
even
if
i
am
happy
just
being
by
you
i
want
the
reassurance
i
am
greedy
i
want
the
security.

security i think i need that in order for me not to falter
security every so often
the security i don't get i crave.

i don't know what's up anymore
and so you'll find only one comment from me
every other one that i sent your way i have deleted
my feelings has not changed not at all
nope not at all my love for you is bolted down in my heart

i'm not a patient person
i hate waiting
yet here i am still waiting
i slightly tired...