one.two.three.four.

one.
i expect too much? the phone works both ways. if i don't text or call it seems i don't get anything from you that makes me feel like i'm forcing myself on you. i don't want to be the only one chasing. i don't want to limit you.

two.
i want to be able to talk to you about anything and vice versa but somehow i think that even if we both say that there's a barrier. a barrier i want to break down. i don't understand myself and you. i want to understand you myself the world. if i can understand then things won't be as hard for me.

three.
i don't know what to do. i don't know what to think. i wish i could put you on pause and finish my schooling with nothing on my mind other than getting good grades then unpause you so that i will not miss a moment with you. i know what i need to do but it collides what i want to do and it makes my fear grow yet i know i'll do what i have to so that way if i'm not forgotten i'll be free to do as i please.

four.
i miss you when i'm not beside you yet i feel if you see me everyday you'd get sick of me but if you don't i'll be forgotten. i love you so much but i can't find a way to show you how much i do.