you put smiles on my face and the day is always more sunny with you around.
i'll hold on and never let go. i love you
i'll hold on and never let go. i love you
exactly that; you are amazing in everyway
dear _____________,
this is to tell you what i'm feeling exactly and what i felt back then. i must say that when i first met you i honestly thought you'd just be another friend that i would spend saturday nights with but by the end of the night or should i say the next morning something about you made me feel like you would be so much more. yes i know what a way to meet someone at a rave a scene full of ecstasy. we were both on it yes i was rolling balls and i believe you were too. after an exchange of numbers still i just thought it was my greed my want for something someone new that you would never call never text unless it was a saturday night. you suprised me a call a text we made plans to watch a movie to hang to chill. my thoughts turned to thoughts of you my heart would race with the mere thought of you a smile would appear on my face as i saw my cell phone screen light up with your name. i told myself not to fall in love i told you the first night that i would no longer say i love you if i didn't mean it because you said OH I LOVE YOU in a playful manner.i warned you not to say it if you didn't mean it that i didn't want to hear it. i had no idea that i wouldn't be able to stop myself from loving you. i thought this would be just a crush a short time i like you but you managed to make your way to my heart. i liked that you noticed that i was really cold because my nose turns cold. it was the little things i liked that you weren't so materialistic when it came down to gifts that you liked to give sentimental things. you were so different from all my exs. when you asked me out my heart seemed to soar i was so happy so happy that i could have died. i didn't know you for long but i knew we would have the time to get to know each other more. then when i saw something i didn't want to see it broke me down i didn't know how to talk to you about it and so i let it go but it ate away at me. when i finally got over it people started to tell me rumors about you things they knew about you but i turned the blind eye because i just couldn't believe it and i trusted you. yet more rumors more all saying the same thing could it be? that they were true? we had a talk i thought it was settled. now we knew more about each other after that talk i thought we would last stronger closer happier. when you told me i love you again it touched my heart because i felt the same way this time around. i hoped my love would reach you. i thought it would be enough for you to forget about your ex. i guess you never did. i remember crying when i was by myself because i found out about her i would cry almost everynight why why did she have to have your heart first? i felt like i was no match to her. she knew you she was your best friend she was my friend's cousin. she was cute pretty and she seemed to be your perfect girl. i was afraid of losing you to her. we spent more happy days together after that talk and on valentine's day i couldn't be happier i woke up with a smiled on my face when i saw your text. your messages sitting by a bag of candy and chocolates. everything about you was perfect to me in every single way i didn't care about your past your rep. i loved you without a doubt. your were the perfect comapany just being by your side i felt like i could fly. when you broke up with me i heard what you said but i felt like it wasn't over. i guess i didn't fully realized what you said even if i did cry. you still gave me a kiss that night after you said "we shouldn't be together." the day after it hit me i no longer had you to hold to kiss to tell you how much i loved you. every day from that day i cried, sobbed with the thought of you if someone were to say your name sadness would overwhelm me i know we were still on good terms we were still friends but it still hurt. some of the days i would try to stop me tears by repeating that and it would work but other times it wouldn't. even after the rumors still kept coming and they hit me hard like a tidal wave. i didn't ask you about them until a little later which you replied they were not true. i accepted that yet i felt that you didn't love me anymore but you replied with i didn't say i lose all feelings for you. that made me see a light of hope i guess but you seem happy now? i hope you are i really do. if you aren't happy being back with her i will question why you broke up with me. off an on i thought i was better that i was healing but you left a big scar i hope you're the one to fix it back up. yes that's what i want but if it doesn't happen then it doesn't happen. it hasn't even been a month since we broke up but it seems so long it seems like the days are longer without you. i miss seeing you on a regular basis you always made my day. i anticipated your calls during your break. i loved sending you good mornings and recieveing your good mornings it made my days brighter. i miss all of that. i miss holding your hand. i miss your hugs i miss your kisses i liked how they were more like quick pecks. i miss everything about you your smile your laughter your excitement. i loved going to the beach with you anywhere new. i cherish every memory we have. i hope we can create new ones. some days when i'm feeling alright i feel as if it's better no more worries it seems easier this way but i don't mind if i'll get hurt i much rather be with you because if you are by my side i can survive through anything. i still cry i won't try to hide it some nights i cry over you because i miss you so much. when i hang out with you i'm happy i'm glad we can still talk about random things. i'm glad we still talk and hang yet when i first see you your hugs aren't even hugs anymore that makes me sad but soon the laughter makes me forget then when you have to go or i have to you it's the same half hearted hug that leaves a frown on my face. i cry less often now which is good but the times i do cry the tears don't seem to stop funny huh? i'm wondering where all these tears are coming from i thought by now i would be all cried out but they just flow streaming down my cheeks.haha.... i want us to be back together but if it doesn't make you happy then i'll try to stop my want because as much as i want us to be back together i want you to be happy. even after all this i have so much more i want to say i think i could write books and books of all i want to say about you like how your imperfections make you perfect. even after all the rumors true or not i would take you back. to me you are someone special. to me you are perfect to me you are someone that has stole my heart chipped it dropped it fixed it up half way and never returned it to me you are someone that made a home inside taken up all the space to yourself and i love you despite everything i love you still always forever. i thank you for everything the joy you brought me for showing me a brighter way to see the world. i miss you the sound of your voice your smile your hugs your everything. i'm glad you are in my life. i honestly truly with the bottom of my heart love you. aishiteru. je t'aime. sarangheh.i love you.♥
p.s. i know i'm greedy this is all about what i want. i know how greedy i am you must think so too. but i can't help but want. you've captured me and i'm stuck on you. my eyes are set on you. i love you.
this is to tell you what i'm feeling exactly and what i felt back then. i must say that when i first met you i honestly thought you'd just be another friend that i would spend saturday nights with but by the end of the night or should i say the next morning something about you made me feel like you would be so much more. yes i know what a way to meet someone at a rave a scene full of ecstasy. we were both on it yes i was rolling balls and i believe you were too. after an exchange of numbers still i just thought it was my greed my want for something someone new that you would never call never text unless it was a saturday night. you suprised me a call a text we made plans to watch a movie to hang to chill. my thoughts turned to thoughts of you my heart would race with the mere thought of you a smile would appear on my face as i saw my cell phone screen light up with your name. i told myself not to fall in love i told you the first night that i would no longer say i love you if i didn't mean it because you said OH I LOVE YOU in a playful manner.i warned you not to say it if you didn't mean it that i didn't want to hear it. i had no idea that i wouldn't be able to stop myself from loving you. i thought this would be just a crush a short time i like you but you managed to make your way to my heart. i liked that you noticed that i was really cold because my nose turns cold. it was the little things i liked that you weren't so materialistic when it came down to gifts that you liked to give sentimental things. you were so different from all my exs. when you asked me out my heart seemed to soar i was so happy so happy that i could have died. i didn't know you for long but i knew we would have the time to get to know each other more. then when i saw something i didn't want to see it broke me down i didn't know how to talk to you about it and so i let it go but it ate away at me. when i finally got over it people started to tell me rumors about you things they knew about you but i turned the blind eye because i just couldn't believe it and i trusted you. yet more rumors more all saying the same thing could it be? that they were true? we had a talk i thought it was settled. now we knew more about each other after that talk i thought we would last stronger closer happier. when you told me i love you again it touched my heart because i felt the same way this time around. i hoped my love would reach you. i thought it would be enough for you to forget about your ex. i guess you never did. i remember crying when i was by myself because i found out about her i would cry almost everynight why why did she have to have your heart first? i felt like i was no match to her. she knew you she was your best friend she was my friend's cousin. she was cute pretty and she seemed to be your perfect girl. i was afraid of losing you to her. we spent more happy days together after that talk and on valentine's day i couldn't be happier i woke up with a smiled on my face when i saw your text. your messages sitting by a bag of candy and chocolates. everything about you was perfect to me in every single way i didn't care about your past your rep. i loved you without a doubt. your were the perfect comapany just being by your side i felt like i could fly. when you broke up with me i heard what you said but i felt like it wasn't over. i guess i didn't fully realized what you said even if i did cry. you still gave me a kiss that night after you said "we shouldn't be together." the day after it hit me i no longer had you to hold to kiss to tell you how much i loved you. every day from that day i cried, sobbed with the thought of you if someone were to say your name sadness would overwhelm me i know we were still on good terms we were still friends but it still hurt. some of the days i would try to stop me tears by repeating that and it would work but other times it wouldn't. even after the rumors still kept coming and they hit me hard like a tidal wave. i didn't ask you about them until a little later which you replied they were not true. i accepted that yet i felt that you didn't love me anymore but you replied with i didn't say i lose all feelings for you. that made me see a light of hope i guess but you seem happy now? i hope you are i really do. if you aren't happy being back with her i will question why you broke up with me. off an on i thought i was better that i was healing but you left a big scar i hope you're the one to fix it back up. yes that's what i want but if it doesn't happen then it doesn't happen. it hasn't even been a month since we broke up but it seems so long it seems like the days are longer without you. i miss seeing you on a regular basis you always made my day. i anticipated your calls during your break. i loved sending you good mornings and recieveing your good mornings it made my days brighter. i miss all of that. i miss holding your hand. i miss your hugs i miss your kisses i liked how they were more like quick pecks. i miss everything about you your smile your laughter your excitement. i loved going to the beach with you anywhere new. i cherish every memory we have. i hope we can create new ones. some days when i'm feeling alright i feel as if it's better no more worries it seems easier this way but i don't mind if i'll get hurt i much rather be with you because if you are by my side i can survive through anything. i still cry i won't try to hide it some nights i cry over you because i miss you so much. when i hang out with you i'm happy i'm glad we can still talk about random things. i'm glad we still talk and hang yet when i first see you your hugs aren't even hugs anymore that makes me sad but soon the laughter makes me forget then when you have to go or i have to you it's the same half hearted hug that leaves a frown on my face. i cry less often now which is good but the times i do cry the tears don't seem to stop funny huh? i'm wondering where all these tears are coming from i thought by now i would be all cried out but they just flow streaming down my cheeks.haha.... i want us to be back together but if it doesn't make you happy then i'll try to stop my want because as much as i want us to be back together i want you to be happy. even after all this i have so much more i want to say i think i could write books and books of all i want to say about you like how your imperfections make you perfect. even after all the rumors true or not i would take you back. to me you are someone special. to me you are perfect to me you are someone that has stole my heart chipped it dropped it fixed it up half way and never returned it to me you are someone that made a home inside taken up all the space to yourself and i love you despite everything i love you still always forever. i thank you for everything the joy you brought me for showing me a brighter way to see the world. i miss you the sound of your voice your smile your hugs your everything. i'm glad you are in my life. i honestly truly with the bottom of my heart love you. aishiteru. je t'aime. sarangheh.i love you.♥
p.s. i know i'm greedy this is all about what i want. i know how greedy i am you must think so too. but i can't help but want. you've captured me and i'm stuck on you. my eyes are set on you. i love you.
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