your eyes are sad but you're still alright

i don't handle arguments well
my temper fires up and burns hateful words that are waiting to spew out
words i don't mean
impulses i don't think about the words it just appear and pop out
i'm sorry but at the same time i'm not well at least not in that moment
after the ashes have cooled
i feel like a piece of me has gone missing and i regret all that i have spoken
i can't be mad anymore because i'm always reasoning it out for the opposing side

if there was a way your eyes would land on this page
i'm still upset but please let's not let that get in the way of our friendship
because i know you tried and i'm grateful so thank you for trying
really thank you i know i wasn't then but i am now
no matter what all my friends say i'm gonna look forward to the next time we hang out
i'm not one to stay mad forever or even for a long time
not a lot can make me that mad for a long time
i'm sorry if i was a bitch but we both had a horrible day.
faults on both ends.
i don't think i would be happy if i never talked to you again
strange the way our friendship started and grew
for it to come to an end if it does over something like this would make me extremely sad
sad because then our friendship didn't mean as much as i thought it meant
sad because you would be out of my life
sad because over the time you became someone i cared about
so i hope we can work this out and clear it all away

let's edit through all the bad bits