i won't care anymore
do what you like go on get fucked up everyday
"are you trying to control all of our lives" you say
it seems to me you don't understand that i care
i'm not trying to make you stop
did i fucking say stop getting fucked up
i asked for you to cut down
"but it's break" you say so what if it's break
you mean every time it's break you'll just get fucked up everyday
and when it's not you'll just do it two to three times a week
so what happens when summer break comes along
you'll get fucked up everyday for two months just because it's break
i'm trying to control all of you ahaha
that's what you think huh no it's not because i care about you
everything you said to me... wow
"it's not like we're getting fucked up with the wrong people"
that's the not fucking point
"but you're not understanding out reason"
so what is the reason? tell me.
"'cause we like to have fun. it's not the best thing but it's what we do"
that's your reason. ahaha don't make me laugh no kidding it's fun who doesn't want to have fun
"are you really trying to control all of out lives?"
did you really just say that to me? HOW THE FUCK COULD YOU SAY THAT TO ME?
"i know you care and that's all. but there's a certain point of caring.when you're trying to get us to stop 'cause it's 'bad' is crossing the line of caring
"cause we know it's bad already. the things we're doing aren't misused like the people that fuck up"
i know you care and that's all? no you don't know how much i care for you guys. that's all huh? so that's what i mean in your lives.
when you're trying to get us to stop 'cause it's bad is crossing the line of caring?
isn't that what caring is? that makes no fucking sense to me.
am i crossing the line? i never said to stop completely.
it's even worse because you know it's bad.
what am i to you people i care so much about hmm? what just someone that's there?
all of you say we'll be here for you bullshit
you let me down more than you know.
this one topped it all.
the more i think about it it's seems to be more true
some of the things you say i don't know if you think about it when you say it or you just really mean it in that way
but it hurts more than anything
probably more than if i had to endure every form of torture.
the way you act it's like i'm not anything
yeah the words you say it's like you're always gonna be around for me
you got my back
but when it comes down to actually showing me there's hardly anything.
so why should i care about you so much?
my energy my time... i worry about you so much
but all i get was "i know" "ok" and even"i promise" fuck that.
you don't get how much i care about you or worry about you.
and now it's implied that all i want to do is control you.
what am i to you? is that how you think of me?
do you know what that tells me? do you know how much that hurts me?
WHO THE FUCK AM I TO YOU? from what it seems like i'm someone that's just there like the paint on your walls.
all your trite phrases shove them up your ass because if that's all they are i don't even want to hear it.
yeah right you're worried about me? you care about me? you never show it so how am i supposed to believe it. all you do is talk and talk and talk.
sometimes i wonder...
i can't even say half the things i want to say because i don't want you to think badly of me but i guess in a way you already do so what's the point now?
fine i'll stop caring.
so go get fucked up.
deteriorate your body. why don't you speed it up faster now?
it seems like you don't care about what i have to say or even about yourself
so why should i?
you laugh about it then say don't get mad
you laugh about the fucked up things you're gonna do and say are you really gonna get mad about it?
you laugh at the fucked up things you say or even contemplate.
you're the biggest hypocrite i know but you don't care you laugh about it and say it's great.
you laugh about how disgusting you're becoming and see how far you can push it
so it's just be that's being the no fun person
the person that doesn't think this is funny anymore
you see don't you think i want to have fun? i do but i don't ever want to become like you.
i bet if i were to say the same words they say to you you'd just say something dismisal. but when they say it oh you BREAK THE FUCK DOWN. so that's what i mean to you.
anyone can yell and scream at you but if i do so you think of me as a bitch and say shut the hell up.
that's what i amount to.
you're the biggest let down the biggest wound to my heart.
even if i worry still and care why would it even matter.
"if that's how i really feel" no it isn't i wouldn't be able to stop caring for you or worrying about you but who cares all you care about is getting fucked up with the
right
or as long as you're not misusing it like the people that fucked up
one day won't you please elaborate on who these people that fucked up are.
so if i worry or care it won't leave my mind
i'll keep it in.
i WON'T care in your eyes and i DON'T care in your eyes.



i really can't believe that's what i am to you
i can't believe that's what you said to me.