there's so many things i want to say to you
but i'll just hold it in
just like i've been doing all this time
after all it's not like what i have to say matters much to you
after all it's not like what i do matters much to you.
i want to disappear off the face of the earth
be a hypocrite and sink away in the chemicals of anything and everything
i want my heart to slowly stop circulating blood through out my body so it becomes as cold as i feel
i want my brain to stop thinking and sending signals of hurt and betrayal through my body.
i don't want to talk to anyone
i don't want to be someone to anyone
i just want to fade out completely
because the harder i try to show i care the more it goes unnoticed
you'll live fine with or without me
you'll smile despite that i am there
forget it. burn it. destroy it.
lose touch with all of you. who the fuck cares anymore.
yeah yeah shut the fuck up.
i don't need anyone just like how no one NEEDS anyone to survive.
i don't need your stupid words that are supposed to be filled with meaning but really it's not. you can tell by the actions that never fucking match up to what you say you'll do.
so why would anyone need any of that?












shut up shut up shut up
i don't need any of your shit.








































































































please want me around...
i'm terrified of being alone...pathetic isn't it?