a day like this

today after school after running out of things to say
there was a long silence that passed
silence i could hear the clock tick and the wind dance off the tree tops
such a nice day
blue skies puffy white clouds and a soft breeze
ah these are the days you stop and know that spring is here
a perfect spring day
i wish when we ran out of things to talk about
you were by my side
especially on a day like this
then we could sit side by side hand in hand
and just watch the flowers dance and the clouds shift
wouldn't that just be so perfect?
yet i wouldn't mind if we were at the mall or the park
anywhere with you would bring a smile to my face...

yet something tugs at my heart like a child tugging at a mother's sleeve
softly sweetly barely noticable
yet the mother turns and knows
just like that childs call for attention something tugs away at my heart
like it's saying please don't forget me and then a rush of sadness overwhelms me
why do i feel so much guilt? why did you leave?
although i know i'm probably better off without you.
you're a phantom pain that whispers to me when i'm alone.
i still cry sob bawl about you whenever i remember the times we would smile and laugh
i cried so many tears for you so why am i still crying
it's obvious that you have moved on you moved on the day you broke up with me maybe even before that
even after the i love you and the whole i'm so glad that we're together
i found someone that makes me smile again
i found someone that makes me shine once more
yet you're still there lingering holding me back
your remnants linger hover tarry
it's just your remnants but it's strong enough to make me turn to him and say i'm so sorry that i'm weak and i can't break free...