today i saw you for the first time in a long while. no you didn't confirm that you were meeting me today at the mall.
but i ran into you the second i got there. you seemed suprised even though i told you that i was gonna be there. you gave me
a half assed hug like always since we broke up. when we were up at the second floor having a harpoon break. yuki karin
cameron talking to each other. i turned to you and after a deep drag you turned to me and said "i broke up with her" my reaction
i had to act fast and i replied with "why? she must been so sad..."
"just because.." is what you said.
just because...i want to know the meaning of your just because why? because i highly doubt you realized that you liked me
and wanted to get back together with me. to me your i love yous have diminsihed in value every time you cheated lied
made me cry. so are you telling me to play with me again?
toy with my feelings? of course you must know what i haven't forgotten about you, i haven't stopped my feelings for you.
or maybe it really is that you want to be back together with me because you still like me...
wishful thinking

hmmm after that i don't think we exchanged much words at all...
but when i saw you i heart thumpped and butterflies fluttered around and about in my stomach
i felt my face turn red and my lips curve upward....
this toll you have on me is not good... yet can it be bad?

i can't won't take you back after all the things you've done...maybe. my feelings for you have only been slightly
put out the light of love i feel for you is still buring
yet in me someone has lit a candle it's flame grow s bigger with each passing second
will you even try to fight for the place in my heart ?
will you just give it up and move on as quickly as the river rushes down the edge?
yet i myself don't know if i want you to try anymore other than as a good friend
then my life would be easier i could let the new flame burn inside me bright and warm then you could stand beside me
friends laughing smiling talking together
then i wouldn't have to choose between one or the other because if things are too hard i'll run away
i'm not a strong person so i'll run away from the both of you
i wouldn't be able to choose you because you've hurt me so much how could i fully trust you even if the time i spend with
you are good ones up until the complications
him he's so sweet. he cares about me and i don't want to just leave him back to you who hurt me. he i think would make me
smile so genuinely. my smile will be so pure and real with him.
yet my feelings haven't died completely for you still even after all this shit and the time spent apart
after exchanges of hurtful words and actions.
i'll probably run away like a coward and just lock myself in my room .

i hope i don't have to choose yet i want to
such complications why do they always stand in my way constantly ah as for everyone though.
MJC
CL
MJC
CL
MJC
CL
MJC
CL...
MJC=<33>
CL=<3>



FML
what is going through your head right now MJC?
why do i feel like i'm trying so much harder CL?