stop your breathing
i feel so small in everyone's world
the words that you say just seems like words right now
words that flow as easily as any other words do
in my mind everything is messed up

my mind doesn't function the way it used to
my heart doesn't beat correctly as it used to
emotions to the extreme just come and go with a blink of an eye
something is wrong with the rhythm of my heart beat
something is wrong wtih the pulse of my brain

i can't think clearly sometimes
sometimes i feel like dying just seriously killing myself for no reason at all
some times i get angry at everyone and my arm twitches from the impluse of wanting to throw something
at times anxiety grabs a hold of me and disables me
all i can do is wait it out luckily i locked up everything dangerous
the items in that box never comes out unless i'm going out
sometimes my head hurts so much i can't move

i don't know what triggers these extreme emotions
i don't know what tiggers this anxiety
i don't know anything at all
at times i feel like just giving up i don't want to try
it's too tiring to love it's too tiring to hate
it's too tiring to try
at times like thses i wish i could have someone that would NEVER let me down
to reassure me that i'm not alone
that i'm needed and cared for just like i need and care for others
yet at times when i need that person or people the most they're never around

so words are just words that flow out of their mouths
just like any other words.