dear mr. mjc,
this is the last letter i will write to you or try to i know even after this i will being writing to you in my heart. never again will you be able to read what i am thinking ever again. i know that we won't be talking for some time now maybe hopefully time will cool his firey hurt and this heated anger. once it cools we'll be able to sit at a park and talk for hours on end like we used to. the anger i hold right now is that you are hating on me for a reason i'm not quite sure of...be angry fine but don't you ever think i'll sit here and let you talk your smack because there is so much more that I should be angry about . there are things that i should have YELLED at you about screamed at you about yet calmly i talked to you and we "worked it out". yes whatever it is you heard or is feeling i'm sure it makes you want to scream because if you're acting like this there is no other reason it's deff. not a happy thing to have heard or found out. so why can't we talk about it? i don't think it's fair for you to get mad and act like a sour kid when i, who is much younger than you, dealt with rumors and hurt better than you. so open your mouth and tell me what's wrong? your words DRIP SARCASIM they hurt more than telling me straight up. you must know that it hurts me when you do or say anything that tells me that you do not like me. they hurt more than being tortured. so why do you do what you do? you must know that it hurt me so much when you broke up with me the way you did it the words you said. they made no sense at all. i had just gotten through telling you how happy i was that we were still together and that i was happy with you and you replied to me with a ME TOO following that me too not even 5 mins later you said i don't think we should be together anymore. WTF? all this pent up anger and sadness i'm gonna pour out to this last letter. WHAT THE HELL? that was so contradicting you're happy to be with me happy we lasted so long so we shouldn't be together anymore? who the fuck says that? then you go and tell yuki when she asks you why just because. JUST FUCKING BECAUSE. all the BULLSHIT you told me to my face that you loved me that you changed that you wanted to leave behind the reputation of being a player a MAN WHORE. i believed you i trusted you even if i knew that you lied to me. i trusted you once more because you were my boyfriend. HAHA i must be so stupid you must have thought yeah i agree with you i believed at fucking cunt like you i let you off easy mistake after mistake. so i handled it calmly i didn't talk to you words dripping with hate and sarcasim. SO WHY CAN'T YOU GROW THE FUCK UP?

it's sad and pathetic that i still miss you. i still dream about you. i still cry because of you. tear after tear never oncce were they tears of joy. they were tears of pain betrayal sorrow and anger. why why is it that i'm still crying? why am i still crying when you've hurt me so much. the lies the cheating that smack talking? WHY CAN YOU GET MAD AT ME FOR THE SMALLEST THINGS AND I JUST HAVE TO SIT HERE AND TAKE IT? do you think you have the upperhand just because you're older or because you think that i'll do whatever you say since i love you? loved you. i think i finally have a FULL understand of what kind of person you are exaactly but let me tell you mike LET ME spell out what's gonna go down for a person like you. YOU who think that you have girls wrapped around your finger yeah so some you're cute but to others you're not of course though you're not butt ugly but honestly you're not THAT good looking so it's not the looks that you have that's got it going for you that will fade more quickly than you age inside you're pretty filthy too. all the detox in the world couldn't make you a cleaner more beautiful person. i wonder how many girls you have hurt and hearts you have broken. i don't want to put any blame on you after all this love you had was no love at all it was a lust that acted and disguised. just like you your love was an actor folling the aduience. you told me you loved me you that you truely did love me. i honestly don't think so no matter how much you say otherwise i won't can't believe you. you've told too much lies fed it to me like it was rice. falling for you i never regretted anything with you i was learning more about this world and the inhabitants. you were one of my first unique experiences... so i won't say i hate you i don't i'm just in pain. i have not fully disconnected myself from you although i should have long ago... your crocodile tears won't ever fool me again.this is just ot vent EVERYTHING i should have said want to say here it is. here is everything all laid out for you:
i love you
i miss you
i hate you
i want to tear your heart out
you're stupid
what the hell is wrong wtih you
what's goin on through your mind
are you insane inviting both me and karissa to your party when you know she clearly hates me
did you want to see a cat fight?
how are you still standing i want you to be knocked off the face of the earth
i cried so many tears for you
those days we smiled made me soar i wish we could go back
i miss holding your hand
i want to say that you're amazing
you're just like him
you're a sult
you fucking bastard
you never changed
let's do that again
you're so sweet
always you're so thoughtful so caring what would i do without
i'm glad we're strong enough to be friends
YOU WHORE
please don't ever let go
never in my life would i have thought to have met you
everything is gonna be ok
you're not part of my happily ever after
why why why?
i love you i love you i love you
there is a special place in my heart for you even after this i cannot get myself to hate you but i need to get you out of my mind because i'm always crying
i thought the tears would have stopped by now
are you even half a decent person?
i question myself for going out with you for being a horrible judge of character
it would have been better if we were just friends
i miss you more than i can write down on words
i'm ready to move on
this is the final look you have on my thoughts they will be closed to you forever because i can no longer trust you with my secrets no longer trust you at all
don't underestimate me
don't be too full of yourself because one day karama is gonna kick you in the ass so hard you'll double take
you know i blame myself on all of this i just want you to grow up
please don't fuck over anymore lives.
there is so much more but i'll stop this here

when the sun is shinning and the fire has died down
the sky will be blue a breeze will blow maybe
someone will find us sitting at a park talking like old times
smiles adorned on our face
laughter bouncing with the wind
when that day comes everything will he healed up
and everything will be ok that will be our ending
out happy ending it isn't a love story ending but it's a happy ending none the less
and it's alright
maybe maybe this is will our ending
and i will be waiting for this day
mike for now i'll send you off with a hug and a slight frown on my face
but i wish to recieve you again with a smile